Defining Moments

Goodness! I haven't written in ages! I blame school. But now it's SUMMER and once again I have time for bloggedy blogging... Or posting a poem that I wrote months ago- 

Defining Moments 

To sit in the crowd... 

Or stand alone. 

To stay where I am... 

Or leave my comfort zone. 

To laugh at the loner... 

Or become their friend. 

To reach out to the stoner... 

Or let them fend. 

These are the moments 

That define who I am. 

Will I simply be silent, 

Or go take my stand?   

God Rocks. Nuff said.

"The Lord replied, 'I will personally go with you [insert name here], and I will give you rest- everything will be fine for you." -Exodus 33:14 


"May He (God) equip you with all you need for doing His will, may He produce in you, through the power of Jesus Christ every good thing that is pleasing to Him. All glory to Him forever and ever! Amen." -Hebrews 13:21 


"The Lord gives His people strength. The Lord blesses them with peace." -Psalm 29:11 


In the hectic-ness of life, God sees and God cares. He personally goes with us. He never leaves or forsakes us. He equips us. He gives us strength. His peace covers us. God is so amazing!  


No matter how I'm feeling, how my day is going, no matter what I'm dealing with, God. goes. with me... Personally. Everything will be fine. Because God is here and He cares about our situations more than we do. 

HOW AWESOME IS THAT?!? 

Messy Rooms and Resurrecting Spiders, the usual...

You know your room is too messy when a gigantic spider comes confidently crawling across your floor, because it thinks it can go unnoticed amid the heap of papers and books strewn throughout the room.
Not true big ugly spider...

...I saw you. 

I am pleased to say, I did NOT freak out... that much. My heart might have skipped a quick beat (like half a count maybe) but I quickly recovered, grabbed my slipper and smashed it over the unsuspecting creature's head.

I wonder if that's like getting hit by a car to a spider? I don't know...

I ran to the bathroom, grabbed a towel, only to discover upon returning, that the spider had somehow managed to resurrect itself.

Now I freaked- I mean, RESURRECTING SPIDERS?!

So I did what any horrified, disgusted human being would do in this situation- I smashed it silly till there was no WAY it would get up. It squirmed again- I pounced. I stood there watching and waiting, ready to pound it if it should even think to move. Finally, all was quiet... and it was quite dead.
Don't tell PETA.
I hurriedly scooped it up and got rid of it- feeling very proud of myself and my spider killing skillz.
 So, if you ever need a spider killed... find some really heavy object and whack it till your arms hurt. It's good exercise too!
So that's my spider story. Why God, did you create spiders? WHY!?
Anyways, all this to say, I think I should probably clean out my room now... Before more spiders decide to invade my happy place.

The Beautiful, Terrifying Journey

God never fails. Ever. Even in our darkest moments, our darkest hours, God is always there. 
 Constant, unchanging, loving, merciful, forgiving, beautiful, all-powerful, all-present, all-knowing- God. Oh how He loves! Nobody can ever come close to understanding how deep He loves us and longs for us. 
I am so unfaithful. So flighty and afraid. Always moving, stressing, going. 
Yet God remains constant. My rock. My fortress. My peace. Standing there in front of me, smile on His face, saying- "why oh why are you constantly running? Stop. Wait. Rest. I love You. I want You. You. are. mine. You will never be perfect, but I want you and love you just the way you are. Trust me, love me." 


Recently, I've been picturing Jesus standing in front me- smiling, arms opens and wide, clasping onto my hands as we walk along together. I have no idea where we are headed; a blindfold obscures my vision; and yet, that doesn't bother Christ. He simply laughs and smiles and says- "trust me. I've got you. I love you." Blindly I follow, clinging desperately to His scarred hands. Confidently He continues to lead me, encouraging me as we walk along. We come to a cliff, harrowing and thousands of feet above the ground. Across the chasm is a beautiful forest and above us- the crystal sky. Continuing to whisper encouraging words to me, holding me all the while, we begin to walk off the cliff across the open, empty space. 
I smile. I have no idea where I am, or what I am doing, but God knows- and through His strength, I am accomplishing the impossible. The truth is, if I could see where I was walking, I wouldn't believe it. I would say it was impossible. I would refuse to take another step. 
But with God all things are possible. He wants to do the impossible in me. In every single one of us. Yet it requires a step of faith, grasping His firm hands and saying- "I trust You. Guide me." God never fails. He never lets us fall. He will guide us. He will lead us. He will take us through valleys and up mountains, to places we would never dream of going on our own. All for His glory. 
Oswald Chambers once wrote- "Faith is deliberate confidence in the character of God whose ways you may not understand at the time."
What are we missing out on because we are not trusting Christ and letting Him lead us? Sometimes it's better to be blindfolded. Even though we can't see or comprehend what is happening around us- God does. And if we hold tightly to Him, He won't let us fall. No matter how humanly impossible or painful the path we are taking becomes. 
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."- Proverbs 3:5-6

A Moment of Inspiration... or Insanity.

Sometimes, inspiration comes suddenly. Very suddenly. Sometimes, you're sitting in your math class, reviewing concepts you already know, when- inspiration strikes. Sudden. Strong. Like lightning.
At least, that's what happened to me. On Thursday... In math class.
I can't say it was the greatest piece of inspiration I've had, and it definitely didn't come at the most convenient time- but it came, so I wrote it down. Keep in mind- I was tired, juggling algebra with creative concepts, and so this really isn't a very good bit of inspiration. But, it's kind of pathetically true. And it rhymes. So there.
It's called "A Love Song For a (Certain) Pop-star."

You've got me falling head over heels 

Your eyes make me squeal 

I just can't help this 

Feeling breathless 

Can this be? 

You smiled at me? 

My heart's thumping wildly 

Don't walk away 

I want you to stay! 

Sing another song 

I'll hum along 

Hear my voice through the throng 

I'm the only one who can really see 

That your hair whips perfectly 

Your eyes are like the sea 

I'm your one true love, can't you see? 

Even when you're old 

I'll still think you're gold, 

Even in a walker 

I'll always be your stalker, 

Oh if you could only see 

I was meant for you 

And you for me! 

You will always be- 

My J.B. 

Love, a Jr. High Girl 

The End. 

Spoken Words are pretty powerful

Alrighty. So I definitely just missed a day in this 30 day challenge.... But I'm just going to pretend that I didn't, and that this is actually day 2- not day 3. Hehehe.

Yesterday was hectic. 6am got up in the mornin' gotta get dressed and leave for school, gotta go to class and take a test, gotta go see my friends... Yeah, I'm done now.

But I really had no time between school, homework, setting up a budget, and breathing, to actually blog.

And because I chose going to this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZuraJpB0OJg over blogging. 

Because they are amazing.    Thought provoking.    Powerful. 

If you ever have a chance to go see Spoken Word, DO IT. 

Challenge? Bring it.

When I said I was determined to blog, that is EXACTLY what I meant. I am Queen of procrastinating, and forgetting, and all that fun stuff, and I want to change that. 
So how, when I know I'm terrible at this, do I find a way to consistently update my blog? 

Answer: 30 day challenge. Duh-duh-duh! 

Yup, I have decided to challenge myself to post a blog once a day for 30 days. It can be on anything I wish, but- I must. post. 


30 day challenges are great or so I've heard. At least, I see them everywhere. 


Did you know- they have books now on 30 day challenges? I wonder what they talk about... 
Anyways, after thinking about it carefully, I have decided to accept my challenge. 

This might be difficult.

 Actually, considering I'm a college student taking 16 units, working 20hrs a week, and a small group leader, this WILL be difficult. But that's the fun right? Right. 


On another note, why is this called a blog? Blog? Say it ten times fast- blog blog blog blog blog... it sounds like you're trying to talk under water- and failing.

Blogging? What's that?

I keep saying I'm going to keep a blog... but I don't. WHY?!
You would think that as an English Composition Major, I would be just DYING to blog. At least, that's what I would think if I were you. But maybe that's just me.
Anyways, I have a Tumblr which I've tried, but don't really like- it's too... well... hipster. No offense to hipsters everywhere (which is like practically half of all American teenagers now it seems). Sometimes I feel very hipster, and then I go on Tumblr, otherwise, I'd rather write elsewhere. But maybe that's just me.
This time though- I'm actually going to try super duper really truly hard to keep up on my blog. Because it's a good experience as a writer. And because it beats talking to myself. Just kidding- I don't really do that... well, maybe I do...